Feeling like a failure...

So, I started this blog to help me with my writing. To help me write more. I feel like a failure. My last post was in October when I got my new cellphone. I haven't been back since and I feel horrible about it. I debated just leaving the blog behind. Maybe even taking it down completely. But I decided that I'd just feel even more of a failure if I did that. See, I have a sort of problem where I never finish what I set out to do. In my life I've started a total of 15 (give or take) novels and short stories. How many were finished? Two. Those were back when I was in middle school. Very short "novels" only 10 chapters each. Not very well written but hey I was learning. I've recently started a new story. Not sure what it will become but I just can't keep quitting things. It's time for me to grow as a writer. To push through no matter what. It may not be the best but it will be mine.

But enough about that let me try and catch you up on just under 3 months of things... hmm. Well, I went to a party on Halloween night. Turned out the party was being thrown by my ex-girlfriend. But thanks to that party I met my new girlfriend. Well a girl I hope will become my girlfriend. I won't put specifics as I'm not like that but let's just say I'm happy. Even my husband is happy about this. Which is weird I admit but he claims it's not lol.

Either way moving on lol: right before Thanksgiving the whole house came down with something. Some of us had it worse than others but needless to say we were all miserable. Thanksgiving was good and not so good. Good in the sense that it was great family time but not so good in the sense that I cooked everything. I don't mind cooking but I will never cook an entire Thanksgiving meal again. Parts of it yeah. Having people come over with the other parts of it sure. But not the whole thing. I'm just happy I wasn't sick anymore or it would have been disastrous. Christmas was good as well. Didn't have to cook and that's a plus. Got some great gifts for everyone and I received some great gifts in return. I didn't get to celebrate Yule what with all the running around but I did give myself some solitude to thank the goddess for everything.

New Years was the only holiday that didn't work out for me. My new "girlfriend" has been having horrible New Years for the last few years. My husband and I wanted to change that this year. We came up with the idea that we were gonna figure out some way for me to get to her house (an hour away) to just spend time together. It didn't quite work out. She came into town anyway because of a party she'd forgotten about until a few days before and though I did get to spend some time with her on NYE she spent the rest of the night at the party. I don't mind that. I'm just happy she had fun. The thing that bothers it was it was my first NYE/NY alone. Hubby had to work and all my other friend's had prior engagements. Hubby made it up to me when he got off work but still.

Hmm let's see what else... oh I've been making a habit of going to this beautiful park every full moon for the last few months. I normally just do my full moon rituals here at home but it's been great to be so close to Earth during my rituals. Even my husband is showing an interest in observing and maybe taking part in one of my rituals.

So yeah, all in all a full last few months. Let's just hope I don't forget about this again. I hate how it makes me feel. So I'll be back. I promise.

)o( Jena