Some info, then some bad followed by some (hopefully) good

So, if you've read up to this point you know that I am basically girl slave here in my mother's house and it's almost literally, OK not really, killing me. I don't just live with my parents however, it's my parents, me, my husband and my baby sister. I'll call her Cherry as that's a shortened version of her online name in well almost everything.

Cherry is 20 years old as of this past October. She graduated in 2013 and since then she's done.....next to nothing. She took her driving class while in school and though she passed with flying colors she was only allowed to get her permit by our parents as she's driven (not counting in the class) all of about 40 minutes. They don't want her to have her licence right now because they're not sure if she'll be good enough to drive their car. I understand this. Their car is brand new. Had to be bought because the one they had before (that they still had 2 years to make payments on) was totalled and needed to be replaced. They don't want to have to replace this new car especially since they had to clean out their savings just to pay the down payment on this one.

She was in AFJROTC all four years in high school and after graduating looked into joining the Air Force. When she didn't get a call back from the one phone call she placed looking for where to sign up she gave up and went for the Army. After being given a medical exam over a weekend and then never calling to see how it went for her she quit on that as well. She's put in applications at 1 count 'em 1 place since then. That place being Kroger with Hubby. After going to a job fair type thing she never called them to find out what else was needed to get a job. This was 2 months ago.

Here at home she has one chore: take out the trash every night at 10pm. With 5 of us living here we fill the trash pretty quickly so there's always at least one bag to take out every night. She knows (and has known for the last 2 years) that this is all she has to do each night. Now there are some nights where she will leave her room to take out the trash without being reminded but this is not the norm. Take tonight for example: It was 11:30 something when she had to be told to take out the trash that has been piling up for 2 days because she couldn't be bothered to leave her room.

She's 20 years old. She should not have to reminded to take out the trash every single night. It's ridiculous. But yes that is exactly what needs to happen. And every time it does happen her response has always been *snotty 13 year old voice* "Oooookaaaaay" Fucking seriously?! Then she bitches over Tumblr, New Grounds, and other sites how she can never be left alone and she's never treated like an adult. I am firmly on the side that if you wish to be treated as an adult maybe you should act like one. Maybe you shouldn't act like a child that has everything handed to them. She gets pissed when the internet is down because that means she can't get on and play her games and talk to her friends over Skype. She feels entitled to always have good internet access and to never have to do any chores and she should always be given money to spend on CDs and shit once a week. Seriously what fucking family did she grow up with??

Then she'll complain about my complaining saying that I have no room to bitch about anything because I have it so good. Again fucking seriously? OK let's look at this in her idea of "got it good". My first cellphone was bought for me by my then boyfriend Thomas and it was a cheap nokia tracphone. You know the ones. Tiny blue boxes where you could only pass the time by playing snake with the graphic quality worse than then original Mario Bros. I didn't get my first "real" cellphone until I was 15. Not a new one but one that actually had a plan for it that gave me unlimited texting. I didn't get my first brand new phone until after I was married. Even now I have a new-ish phone but I have to keep up with the bill. Her? She got her first cell phone at the age of 14 and it was brand new fresh off the line. She's gotten three new phones since then whenever her phone stops working for one reason or another. Oh and our mom has been paying her phone bills the whole time.

Laptop: I didn't have my first one until I was 18 and that was an old one of my mom's that didn't even work anymore. Once you turned it on you had maybe 10 minutes to do whatever you needed to before it would crash. I used it to mainly to write as it would no longer get online or play games properly. After that I got another laptop when I was 20 another hand-me-down this time from my cousin. Though I could now get online using my own laptop it was slow and had many problems and viruses that kept it from running smooth enough to get anything done that took longer than an hour. I received my first brand new computer when I was 22 as a Christmas present from my parents. I used that for a year before my dad purchased me a new one the following year (the same one I have now) with the plan to give him mine (which had Windows 7 and he wasn't ready to have a Windows 8 computer which is all the new computers had anyway). Her? She received her first laptop when she was 16. She received another brand new one when she was 18 (the same year I got my first one) after hers had so many viruses that you could probably have caught something just by being in the same room as it. She's had 2 other brand new laptops since. Each one catching so many viruses that she refused to try to fix it and just demanded a new one.

Privacy and being left alone? As you all know by now I am NEVER left alone. I'm either sleeping or being bothered by someone to do something at pretty much all hours of the day. She has, as previously stated, one job each and every day. She may be bothered once a week to walk up to Circle K (about a 30 minute walk there and back) which she makes on her own once a week anyway.

There are many other things that she's been "blessed" with in her life that I had to wait/work for. I'm not saying that she should be put through the same thing that I was/am. I'm just saying that if you're living with someone who has no qualms about telling you how fucked up their life is maybe you shouldn't claim that they have it better off when that is clearly not the fucking case.

Anyway onto the good: I want to wish everyone a very Happy New Year and I hope your year brings you happiness and love and all the things you want out of life. Or at least enough of it that the good far out weighs the bad.

So I don't actually make resolutions at the end/beginning of the year because, as you know, I don't always finish what I set out to do. However, this year I will make at least a few.

1. I want to read more and keep a list of each book I've read or re-read for the year of 2015. I'd love to be here this time next year looking over a very fleshed out and eclectic list of books that I own and have actually read.

2. I want to write at least one novel. I'm not good with following NaNoWriMo because knowing that I'm forcing myself to write 50k words in 30 days kind of gives me hives but I think to write 50k words in 365 days might be better for me. If I write more than that then yay!

3. Looking over my posts from this blog's conception I made 34 posts in 2013 and only 9 in 2014 yes I did the 21 days to make a habit thing and that takes up 24 posts. But that means if you take those posts out then in the last 2 years I've only posted 19 blogs. Seriously? I'm appalled at this. So this year I will strive to at least post twice a month. If I do that it will at least give me 24 posts. Now there is no way I can agree to post once a day because that would make me feel obligated then I'd probably just leave. I have that flaw, I admit, and I just don't want to leave this behind because even though I haven't made nearly the posts that I'd like to have made by now this blog makes me happy. It gives me somewhere to rant without having to worry about what my mom is going to say about it this time that I'm going to have to deal with. So yeah I will strive to post at least twice a month for the year of 2015.

See that's about it. I don't want to give myself too much because then I'll just get pissed at myself if I don't follow through on enough of them. With this list? I can actually see myself following through on all 3 of these and at the end of the year I'd feel extremely proud of myself.

So once again Happy New Year everyone and may your year be as wonderful as you want it to be.

)o( Jena